Ready to Jump

So I’m day 6 after my first Chemo cycle. My Chemo is given every 3 weeks for 18 weeks. Prior to starting chemo I was well informed by many people that week 1 would be the worst, week 2 I would recovering and week 3 would be back to normality ready for the next cycle.

I was all psyched for the worst week of my life, different pair of pyjamas sorted for everyday (Thank you Primark!). Every form that ginger actually comes in; purchased. Books and box sets at the ready. Drugs all lined up in a very snazzy Medi-pack!!!

But, after thinking the very worst, all I’ve really had is some mild nausea and I feel a bit tired. My analogy of this is; getting dressed to jump out of a plane then jumping off the coffee table?!!

Now, I’m certainly not downplaying this. I can imagine this is luring me into a false sense of security and I’ll be feeling like I’ve been hit by a bus by the end of the 6th cycle (think I might have an obsession with buses!!).

Being at home all week has give me the opportunity to get some personal admin done. You know those jobs that are important but a bit miserable. Anyway one of these jobs was reading the drafts for our wills. Man they’re wordy! If anyone ever struggles with sleep just read the first page (of the 25+ pages) of one of those bad boys, that’ll get you over!!! So, after falling asleep more times than I care to count it was done, tick.

Next job, my funeral wishes. Writing a letter that will be read out in the event of your death is very strange and emotional to write. Now, me being me there’s obvs a bit of humour in it!! And despite the brilliant suggestion by Dr Chay (a dear colleague at work), I did think requesting a Chinese wailer was just a step too far!!

So what to do after that bundle of fun!! Online shopping? A bubble bath? Some craft making? Baking a cake? No.

The thing I look forward to most days; before and after diagnosis, but now more than ever before; is the kids coming home from school and Mark coming home from work. Listening to their day and getting hugs and kisses is the best thing in the world for me, that’s what’s important right there. People. My people. My family. My friends.

I’m richer because of you.

You know who you are ❤️