Since my last blog not much has happened on on the cancer front. I am living life scan to scan. My next scan is on 27th June and will see the oncologist in the weeks after this to get results and to work out the next steps. My options will be immunotherapy or chemotherapy, and of course surgery remains on the treatment table for now. But for the time being I am just grateful for each day and I am out living life, that's what it's all about now.
I have realised how we all put life on hold because of rules we impose on ourselves. "ooh I'm keeping that dress for best" or "I'll wear that watch on special occasions" or "We will wait to celebrate until we can do it properly". I am trying to stop doing that because life is actually too short! Mark bought me a pair of diamond earrings last year, and at first I kept them for best. Until I realised everyday is best! So now I wear them everyday. Don't wait for special events; wear the dress, buy the shoes, eat the cake! So, don't think it's odd when you see me in Morrisons in a ball gown and my Jimmy Choos eating a pavlova!
In other news, Mark and me got matching tattoos just after my diagnosis as we had talked about it for a long time. We got anchors on our wrist to symbolise hope, stability and resilience. Not long after that my friends suggested we get matching tattoos too, so we went and had a custom tattoo, this time on my other wrist. If anyone else want to get a matching tattoo with me I'll have to join the bloody circus!! But what a gesture, bound forever inked in our skin, the love and bond between a group of people, pretty special that I think.
You are a very special lady to us all , we love you xx